Once I thought I was the luckiest gal ever.

yeh although there were times wher we argue, and times wher we hav cold wars going on here and there.

but still, it was thought to be the tightening of our bond.

haha. but who knows, yeh prollly im blur. im juz not tat attentive enough to realise things changed.

and worst has it became.

to accept the fact it has became reality of what I feared of the most.

to blame is myself.

to wish things were back to normal. ( although I think it will not happen unless there are miracle I guess? )

to hope he is happy there with his choice.

And thanks for giving such good alongside with bad memories thru out these years.

take care

river flows on and on.,

same goes with the tears.

dripping one drop to another,

wetting off the handkerchief i had with me, of which it doesnt seem to be able to wipe dry those tears of mine.

deep inside, tears just flow,

without knowing why at first, but it just kept flowing on and on,

soon to realise, I overlooked at things that I've should pay attention to,

seems that being plain innocent simply is NOT what everyone wants to have,

but when its there, it's there.

cant change any hardcore facts that happened. no matter how badly you hope you could.

look a blady walking alive zombie in the lights instead of night.

could juz be able to scare people off with those swollen eyes. and the wet and down looking face.

ye, after a whole night sob, and sleepless nights. thats what you get.

fortunately I could say, my revision classes are over.

need not be heading out of house to meet anyone.

people say patience pays,

love is blind,

love overcomes everything, even those saddest time in your life,

cherish life, live life to the fullest it shall be.

what I could hope now is everything's going to be alright.

and back to how it should have been.

the mask has broken,

its either to stick it back to how it originally looked like,

or just let it be as it now.

nevertheless, be happy is what you've hope for,

and therefore, i'll try my best to be what you hope for.

let it be the first and last, as it breaks my heart into bits and pieces,

slowly we'll recover,i know we could do it together.

oh well..

1. yes I am unhappy

2. why? cause he's there and she's there too.

3. so? I'm not feeling comfortable. Unhappy.

4. covering with another HAPPY mask over the SAD mask. showing that everythings ok everythings fine. nothing happens. its just that. as clear as a white paper.

5. hold on. hang on. stay calm stay cool.

6.back home. in the room. sob and think and think and think.

7. swollen eyes and eye bags getting biggr getting darker clinging round your eyes. giving those dark shadows and creepy.

8. kickin the edge of the bed, surfing the internet, finding new facebook games to past time with, just to keep myself busy so that wont start thinking of that matter.

9. but it just keeps coming and coming, mind starts to wander off, unconsciously, tears starts to drop and it goes on and on for some time before it cools down.

10. breathing in air hardly trying to cool it off.

11. hoping things will be alright soon enough

=(

Well, today's Wednesday. 8PM.

here i am sobbing and sighing around in front of my laptop when no one sees me.

and to give out a smile fakely which I dont feel like giving,

a MASk to hide your real emotion huh?

feeling much stressed up and in one of those bad depression state of mine.

sometimes wonder why would I want to put myself in such position? what for??!

it's just that normal things that happens day to day, right??!

maybe it is to some, but definitely its not for me.

it's just 3 days down the road, another 2 more to go,

going through these 3 days are already hard enough,

what else with the other 2 days?

I really hope that I could bear with this till Friday!!

ARGH~!
Been a BLOOD donater this few weeks!
Well, not in a nice way, and its so itchy and painful and irritating!!!
This is SO NOT NICE!

Yeah, MOSQUITOES! Sigh, why would they like to target me ?? =(
Havin many mosquito bites and marks all over my leg!
BOOHOO! you know lar! Girls want wear short skirt short pants.
got those marks d, how to wear? sad sad sad.!
Not that I dont like wearing long pants.
Just that being a girl, you'll like to wear skirts also de mar.

Hopefully I would be able to get rid of those mosquitoes.
And the marks as soon as possible!
I miss wearing my skirts!!!

oh yes, I'm still awake at this very hour of the day. ><
been away for class last week.
thanks to the thigh pain i had since monday!

but, its my fault anyways, sigh!!
I cannot complain do I? ><
f.y.i, it is still pain now, but not as pain as when it was when I first felt it,
gosh, I cant feel my leg man! hahaa..
almost collapse straight to the coffee table!!
not the fainting situation, just my leg felt numb. xD
However it is, I'm better now, and I can jump, walk faster? heehee.. just not the squatting YET.

*yawns* feeling tired now. going to sleep now! ahaha. feeling grumpy already. ><
have a nice day people!

Have A Break, Have A KIT KAT!

heehee~

the title says it all..

my favourite chocolate wafer stick!!

there's this straight from switzerland packaging!

EXTRA creamy!!! yummy!! hahaha..

which also mean that it is going to be EXTRA fattening!!

but who cares right? xD

as long it taste SUPERB in the mouth, and YES! the satisfaction! haha.!

Here i present to you! KIT KAT MINIs!!