hrm. exactly a week to go for exams.

surprisingly, not THAT stressed up already for it.

not that I m prepared for it.

but taking it slow and easy perhaps?

after weeks of down and emotional,

could probably say that I'm getting up quite okay from the previus fall.

waking up to know that it's a better world out there,

and opportunities to be explored. *wink wink*

really makes my day.!

wondering what's for breakfast and lunch! haha.

having both 'appointments' working everyday~

so yeah, basically everyday out at least for one occasion! haha.

probably that could keep me away from thinking negative stuff and be happy with friends.

before this, a friend told me about he is not gonna let things go unclear, or vague perhaps,

starts to make things so,

and making assumptions where it leads him no where,

which on the other hand, if kinda bothering me now. haha.

cause he just don't get it how a relationship works. ><

and at times he would give advises at those matters and down side of the relationships he is made known to,

this is probably making me wonder if he is even wise enough to give such an advise where he understands what advises he gave would impact the person being advised,

or he is just merely saying so after seeing another person's relationship and just basically compares the current relationship with that other relationship.

Not saying that he is wrong,

but I hope he would soon realise what he is doing..

and what he should do,

than grumble and whine all around and around about that one lil matter..

and put everyone in stress form !

'well i hope he isnt reading this, but if you read this, you should know who I am pointing this to'

however things have happened, it is the past!

so stop whining over it,

move on!

I know its hard,

I am going through this stage too,

but as one fella told me before too,

if u can live another day, why live in sadness? why dont you live happily? that would be much worthwhile than just passing and marking down your days in live with sadness?

I try to live to those words of his!

and I hope those out there in depressed or has just recently went into a hard relationship,

lucks and surround yourselves with friends! good friends I mean!

as for now, they would be the ones you need the most to support you up from those falls.. =)

Weehee~~~ another week to exam and den 2 weeks of holiday? hahaha.

cant wait for holiday wey.

with all the plans on the scheduling.!

SHOPPING with my girls

MEETING UP with long lost contact friend of which I manage to contact them recently!

TRAVELLING with family and probably having a few friends joining! I cant wait~ haha

MOVIE MOVIE MOVIE !!! I've been missing out alot from the screenings lately.. Storm Warriors!! Ninja Assassin!!

YumCha! !

food food food! shop shop shop!

wait for me holiday! Im coming soon!

Anyone has suggestions where got nice food in Malacca?

har!

exactly in 2 weeks to exam!

and what am I doing?

facebooking, msn chatting, dota!

haha!! well, I DID took up my notes to read up,

but not really effective, only like max 15 minutes concentration,

and there goes my mind flying around! hehe.

*but at least its better than last 2 weeks ago? ><

yesterday midnight,

got special delivery for supper!

hehe!! thanks to Jun Boon and Sze Jun!

Was suppose to meet them as well as Keon.

too bad so sad, mummy dun let me out!!

as i've went for night time yam cha spree the last couple of days! heee!

The funniest was, special delivery?? heee

Jun Boon making special delivery for me! hahaha.

They were at this MacD. heehee! NO nit order macd wan, u wan what I go buy. haha!!

And guess what, he went there and that shop close,

and I thought they went to ss14 to buy after that,

but in reality, he went all the way to TAIPAN!

I was like. @@ hahhaa

And not only that,! they bought me 2 packets! and that 1 packet is like for 2 fellla's portion!

eat until superb full wey! haha.

it lasted me for supper breakfast and lunch!

Getting addicted to Cry on my Shoulder by Deutschl. sucht den Superstar

seconds to seconds,

minutes to minutes,

hours to hours,

days to days,

well, shud next be years to years, but have not gone to that stage yet, so i'll leave it..

things which was at first thought would be let go off,

was what that came up to mind and hopefully being set into the mindset,

to move on from here get a NEW life!

Somehow or ever, have you ever thought that, once you've done something and hope for something that seems so impossible at that particular time,

how you hope it'll be as what you've expect of the happy endings like those you watch in fairytales,

parents once said that, never trust fairy tales, they are just fictions ! puppy love blablabla..

thought it was until I met HIM.

agreeing there were times that arguments and stuff going on,

but we handled pretty okay.

yeh, that was the time where ' I THOUGHT' it was.

how fast can 1 person change from loving to not loving?

is love something that one person say its gone means its gone?

no way of bringing it back huh??

where did those feelings of where you say i miss you, i love you and i want you here with me?

just disappear into the thin air just in a blink of eyes?

acknowledging that nobody is perfect,

but is love something that is so easy to be manipulated? sigh

do you ever felt that when things gone bad,

how you wish you could just be angry with that other person,

to kick, hit, slap, scold, or do whatever nasty to em,

but somehow, you just couldn't do any of those to them,

you just cant.

and there's when you are really confused of yourself wondering what exactly do you want.

have you ever keep following the other person's blog, or facebook if you add them in your friend list? wondering what is she doing? mentioning about your partner? or anything similiar to that?

when nothing comes up, you'll feel slightly relieved.

but however, when things come posting up relating to them,

you'll sudden feel heartache somehow.

worst to the worst is when you both aint anymore of relationship and she starts to post things up and that was like partly like causing this relationship to break down?

letting one go, whom you really have a heart for once,

is really hard, gsh it really feels so heart crushing.

like millions and millions of needles and knifes sticking and stabbing thru...

if you've cried, might even fill up half tank of the water tank of the house i guess?

For a week plus, I've been trying to get myself up,

having friends around me,

comforting me, accompanying me almost everyday,

breakfast, lunch, dinner.. haha. at least one of it!

thanks to keon and jenn mun for planning it! hehehe..

Finally, think it through thoroughly,

things might seem to be hard to let go, after all these while,

weeping and depressing over the matter wouldn't change things,

and so yeah, I think I can let it go,

taking time to recover,

at least now I am able to get my book and read! compared to last week!

should see how I was, basically like walking zombie! muahaha..

As someone once told me, live life to the fullest,

this are part and parcel of your journey,

take it as a lesson and experience,

move on!

don't keep staying and live in the past,

one should live their life as wild as they could,

as there is only once to enjoy your life! =)

so yeah, i agree! hee!

I'm coming home! =)

Once I thought I was the luckiest gal ever.

yeh although there were times wher we argue, and times wher we hav cold wars going on here and there.

but still, it was thought to be the tightening of our bond.

haha. but who knows, yeh prollly im blur. im juz not tat attentive enough to realise things changed.

and worst has it became.

to accept the fact it has became reality of what I feared of the most.

to blame is myself.

to wish things were back to normal. ( although I think it will not happen unless there are miracle I guess? )

to hope he is happy there with his choice.

And thanks for giving such good alongside with bad memories thru out these years.

take care

river flows on and on.,

same goes with the tears.

dripping one drop to another,

wetting off the handkerchief i had with me, of which it doesnt seem to be able to wipe dry those tears of mine.

deep inside, tears just flow,

without knowing why at first, but it just kept flowing on and on,

soon to realise, I overlooked at things that I've should pay attention to,

seems that being plain innocent simply is NOT what everyone wants to have,

but when its there, it's there.

cant change any hardcore facts that happened. no matter how badly you hope you could.

look a blady walking alive zombie in the lights instead of night.

could juz be able to scare people off with those swollen eyes. and the wet and down looking face.

ye, after a whole night sob, and sleepless nights. thats what you get.

fortunately I could say, my revision classes are over.

need not be heading out of house to meet anyone.

people say patience pays,

love is blind,

love overcomes everything, even those saddest time in your life,

cherish life, live life to the fullest it shall be.

what I could hope now is everything's going to be alright.

and back to how it should have been.

the mask has broken,

its either to stick it back to how it originally looked like,

or just let it be as it now.

nevertheless, be happy is what you've hope for,

and therefore, i'll try my best to be what you hope for.

let it be the first and last, as it breaks my heart into bits and pieces,

slowly we'll recover,i know we could do it together.