Wednesday, November 25, 2009

seconds to seconds,
minutes to minutes,
hours to hours,
days to days,
well, shud next be years to years, but have not gone to that stage yet, so i'll leave it..

things which was at first thought would be let go off,
was what that came up to mind and hopefully being set into the mindset,
to move on from here get a NEW life!

Somehow or ever, have you ever thought that, once you've done something and hope for something that seems so impossible at that particular time,
how you hope it'll be as what you've expect of the happy endings like those you watch in fairytales,
parents once said that, never trust fairy tales, they are just fictions ! puppy love blablabla..
thought it was until I met HIM.
agreeing there were times that arguments and stuff going on,
but we handled pretty okay.
yeh, that was the time where ' I THOUGHT' it was.

how fast can 1 person change from loving to not loving?
is love something that one person say its gone means its gone?
no way of bringing it back huh??
where did those feelings of where you say i miss you, i love you and i want you here with me?
just disappear into the thin air just in a blink of eyes?
acknowledging that nobody is perfect,
but is love something that is so easy to be manipulated? sigh

do you ever felt that when things gone bad,
how you wish you could just be angry with that other person,
to kick, hit, slap, scold, or do whatever nasty to em,
but somehow, you just couldn't do any of those to them,
you just cant.
and there's when you are really confused of yourself wondering what exactly do you want.

have you ever keep following the other person's blog, or facebook if you add them in your friend list? wondering what is she doing? mentioning about your partner? or anything similiar to that?
when nothing comes up, you'll feel slightly relieved.
but however, when things come posting up relating to them,
you'll sudden feel heartache somehow.
worst to the worst is when you both aint anymore of relationship and she starts to post things up and that was like partly like causing this relationship to break down?

letting one go, whom you really have a heart for once,
is really hard, gsh it really feels so heart crushing.
like millions and millions of needles and knifes sticking and stabbing thru...
if you've cried, might even fill up half tank of the water tank of the house i guess?

For a week plus, I've been trying to get myself up,
having friends around me,
comforting me, accompanying me almost everyday,
breakfast, lunch, dinner.. haha. at least one of it!
thanks to keon and jenn mun for planning it! hehehe..

Finally, think it through thoroughly,
things might seem to be hard to let go, after all these while,
weeping and depressing over the matter wouldn't change things,
and so yeah, I think I can let it go,
taking time to recover,
at least now I am able to get my book and read! compared to last week!
should see how I was, basically like walking zombie! muahaha..

As someone once told me, live life to the fullest,
this are part and parcel of your journey,
take it as a lesson and experience,
move on!
don't keep staying and live in the past,
one should live their life as wild as they could,
as there is only once to enjoy your life! =)
so yeah, i agree! hee!

I'm coming home! =)





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